sage femme

10:49 AM

i am sitting in geo 220
supposed to be listening
and writing feverishly
instead i am doing fr 102 (francais!)

ou es-tu travaillera?
(where will you work?)
je travaillerai chez moi.
je serai sage-femme.
(i will work in my house.
i will be a midwife)

and
then it hits me
the acute midlife/midwife crisis of march 2011.
(yes. i tend to have them monthly)

sage femme
literally translates
to wise woman

i panic.
i start to talk really fast
and say things like
i am not wise.
or unflappable.
or strong.
or put together.

i am a fricken mess.

and then i start to question my (sole) audience member
"is it obvious that i have a million thoughts right now?"
they approach the question cautiously
".......yes....but not always..."

i will accept that answer.
gratefully.

one soy latte and a couple of carrot sticks later
i am calm again.