to be honest...

i have been feeling insecure as of late.
insecure about my ways of speaking english.

learning a different language is a challenge.

it challenges your mother tongue.

i have to think, harder than ever before, when i speak english.

my inner dialogue resembles this nonsense:

"is that a word in a english?? 23 years and i don't know if that is a word in english?"

"can i say that in english too? or just french?"

"did that make sense..."

"am i making sense?"

"is it still possible for me to make sense?"

the answer, apparently, is no.

but i am working on it.
bear with me.

merci.