the saluting and the sweating and the everything in between

i once watched a woman do sun salutations for two hours

breathe in
arms up
breath out
down
breathe in
long back, look forward

i could only wonder

what on earth is she doing?

sun salutations and i have this thing; we call it a maximum of fifteen.
and then the sun and i have kind of met our limit, you know?

well, i get it.
i finally get it.

11:30 PM.

i toss and turn and finally i give up
i find myself on my yoga mat
and i breathe in
arms up
breathe out
down

and i salute and i salute and i salute
and i sweat and i sweat and i sweat
and, finally, i get it.

sometimes the heart is so damn heavy.
you have to keep going until it feels light again.

and i end in savasana
saying

dandelion, 
dandelion, 
dandelion....

pretending my pain is light and fluffy seeds that float away into the abyss
and, then, i sleep.